Facing my fear: to save my autistic son's future, I had to let him go Elayne Robertson Demby It's always hard for parents when their children leave home. What makes it so different to talk about it in private versus on social media. To be honest? Obviously she has never had to walk in the same shoes as the other parent but will judge her anyways. The very last effing thing any of us needs is someone judging us during what is an emotional and upsetting time. Well, Im 22 years old. Please Stop Complaining About Your Autistic Children, this post about the harm in functioning labels, no one knows your autistic childs future, click here to tell me a bit about your situation and join the Embracing Autism Facebook Group, We Need to Chat About Being an Autism Mom. The fact that there are support groups to share experiences and vent is exactly what the author points out. Autism at the very least requires significantly more support than it currently receives. A desire not to do something. She cries in her car, on video for hundreds of thousands of people to see, because her son is autistic and that makes her life hard. You should have SOME idea of what autism is and what its not, but it seems like youre making up your own symptoms because thats how YOUR child is. Wow, Kaylene, such a great essay! The author succeeds at protecting a child from an overreacting mother by giving heads up to that Mom where she errored. I don't want my child to have autism anymore. Maybe that lady crying in her car about how hard her life is bc of autism had to the same thing everyday for the last week. Its been 4 years since my oldest was diagnosed and almost 2 years since my middle baby was diagnosed, and Ive better educated myself on how to best accommodate thier needs. Remember that mistakes are normal, and no kid gets perfect caregivers. AAC can help a child communicate in words, even if they can't speak. Having two autistic children (one moderate and one severe) has ruined my life and my wifes life. Outside of the internet hardly anyone cares, people in the general public rarely understand, you as the parent are the villain and without resources and constant intervention paired with routine it is Hell. Were not allowed to be ourselves because we embarrass YOU. Were not your pets, were people, and we deserve privacy. Autistic children often like to touch and taste individual ingredients before deciding whether or not to eat them, and these dishes make it difficult for them to do so. She's defiant, rude, immature, and uncooperative. Assume that your child is struggling, not intentionally misbehaving. I fully believe that is the biggest missing piece of autism awareness. Not just for your own sanity but for the literal safety and heart& soul of your son. They may have never known any autistic people before knowing your child. I have to fight against voices like hers everyday, and it just seems like mothers like her breed more and more hate for Autism everyday. I have not complained for 30 years. People may well read this and say your not like my child or Youre too high functioning (both of which are irrelevant, its a judgement based on typed words, they dont know me and even if those things were to be correct, they do not make my words or the other persons childs experience any less valid) but some parents need to think about what they say and put out there. We use cookies to make wikiHow great. So just stop. YES! Youve never seen the severe side, and the helplessness and despair. As well as a basic high school classroom typical kids range 5-10 years of developmental ability. We just saw a grandmother kill her twin autistic boys recently. Neighbors warning new neighbors about your kid. The moral police dont get to decide how other people deal with difficult emotions. They gave birth to a disabled child so i guess they deserve what they get. At the very least, it comes off bad on the parent. Again, this is the sort of thing that shouldnt happen with ANY child. Dont censor the woman whose video went viral about her view. Consistency helps autistic children make sense of the world and feel secure. When you say that autism ruined your marriage, youre telling people to fear autistic people. Learn the difference. Whats that based on? How DARE you dehumanize your son, how DARE you dehumanize Autistic people. Still dressing and brushing teeth and feeding adult children that have no adaptive skills. AS someone whos autism was so hidden I wasnt even diagnosed until 31, I can tell you it wasnt easy for me or my parents. He can go to the bathroom on his own and even though he didnt go to mes school he still has the possibility to think of what he wants his life to be. It helps if the people around them can be a calming influence. You are not alone in not being believed. ALL PEOPLE COMPLAIN. everyone struggles and we all do and say things in the heat of the moment when tired, unhappy or stressed. Yeah, I bet. Beautifully written! This article should be taken down. Has anyone been in this situation and can give me some wisdom and advice or even just a 'you are not alone'? You make money off your childs Autism, but have the nerve to try and shame another mom. Screams and slaps are his stims. So for your first rule of thumb, dont post anything publicly about your autistic child that you wouldnt post about your neurotypical child. Absolutely not. Watching other kids at things like Elmo concerts and knowing you cant usually even make it through a family members birthday party much less some special event like that. Parenting is hard. Look, having kids makes life harder as much as it makes life fulfilling. Frustration over a lack of communication. Is this a possibility for you? We are on our own. Whoever wrote this article youre an idiot. Parents need an outlet but it shouldnt be somewhere the child can Google for later in life. You can express these things without traumatizing your child. I know living with an autistic child is hard sometimes- if its hard all the time- to the extremes it is with you and your family its past time for help. % of people told us that this article helped them. clean the parts taht get stinky. Selfrighteous fat piece of shit, how dare you. Imagine for a moment that you always wanted a child tobecome a doctor. Your child is crying for help and you choose to demonize them. I have never had a student with any kind of special needs which dont take more then their fair share of individual help which does mean other kids do miss out and individual help that they could use too. And it is hard enough to speak up, to blog, to share our experiences without OTHER MOTHERS and other people with autism ( who are ABLE to speak out for themselves) telling us we should NOT complain? I feel so sorry for your child(ren). She wants me to wear the same thing day and night. Youre just bitter and selfish, thinking your feelings matter more than autistics like me. Those are the exceptional few on the spectrum. Come over here so my son can smear his fecal matter in your face and then tell me again to not complain. Remember that many autistic people don't like the idea of hurting themselves. SOMETHING in our environment is hurting our childrens brains and the result is an epidemic of ADHD, autism, allergies. Please listen to what this amazing lady has to say and show more respect. You have NO CLUE what the hell you are talking about, sitting on your high functions autism perch and judging those of us whose lives are only lived to be caregivers to our severe children. And well, an apple that falls far from the tree is quite a rare thing Poor children, and poor pets. All yall do is talk over them and dont listen to their struggles. You dont even know what youre talking about. Just hold tight. Sometimes SIB is related to pain. Please feel free to submit articles to enhance the knowledge Insurance companies and schools are repeat offenders, and they are tired! Austitic mama mantra seems to be Out of sight, out mind, I actually loved this post! You know how those of us labeled high functioning are just the stereotypical geniuses therefore nothing could ever go wrong with us??? At least in my state, special education services for those students who functionally cant understand virtual learning have been ignored completely. Right? The prevalence of adults with autism is on the rise and the reason is really quite simple: more children diagnosed with autism means, in the long run, more adults with autism. What am I gunna do when hes 35 and 6ft 5 and 240 pounds like his dad when hes this violent now? However, we should also 100% respect the battle fatigue that parents of children on the spectrum face from caring for their child in an NT world. The stim may be very important to them. We need to expose the lack of support,resources and services for this vulnerable population, hiding them is inmoral , this type of article enables ableism and discrimination. Nobody ordered you to stop complaining, if you have the martyr syndrome just express it in proper places and possiibly in front of proper watchers/readers/listeners. It'll teach them the basics of reciprocal communication (which lays a good foundation for speech), allow them to express themselves, and help get their needs met. Grab lunch with a friend and vent about life. You can afford therapy?! Thanks to all authors for creating a page that has been read 68,833 times. Her concerns are real. And I dont mean for him I mean for you and your husband. Ableism (yes, even from parents) is the issue. Watching your child headbang, scratch, bite, punch themselves for a reason we cant explain, and the helpless feeling of watching that without being able to stop it unless using restraints and emergency medications to sedate. Email me if you need someone to talk to. Im really shocked at these replies youve gotten. If you love your children you will change how you see and treat autistic people. No kidding. With the current situation going to the hospital for any other reason is not the best option. A LACK of empathy. Any mother to says i dont think like that, dont think is being truthful,fear and worry come from Love and caring. It would have been a opinion and that is ok. You are saying that she shames her son, so what are you doing then? She is blogging about her life. Most autism mums disgust me. Point is why are they never mentioned? I am just the carer. It is offensive to parents that struggle every day. Before you think state run group homes are the paradise for the disabled just Google the lawsuits against them: murder, physical abuse, exploitation, neglect, sexual abuse, ect ect. The fact you are autistic muddies your POV. Avoid organizations that aren't run by autistic people, or treat autism as an enemy to be eradicated, such as. Life is hard. Not every autistic child is the kind you can just take to starbucks or out for lunch! There is so much you have no idea about. PLEASE stop blogging about Autism. Don't force your child to spend time with bullies or unkind children. There are tons of autistic groups where non-autistic parents are not allowed and the the kids will finally feel accepted. Depending on your child's learning abilities, this may be a good idea. How would you feel if a parent of a child with cerebral palsy went on the internet and unloaded all the ills their child was doing to them. WHERE does such heartless criticism come from?? Parenting must be hard at times (again not only parenting an autistic child). So much! Being attacked by your own child. I dont believe you were shaming me or any other parent all. So your child isnt going to be a football star or a cheerleader. Stop trying to hide them like they used to hide people with mental illness in institutions with physical & chemical restraints. His reading comprehension is not even at a 1st grade level. If I do, thats a meltdown. I am full of fatigue, no energy, and have lost all joy in my life. Dont be judgmental to other autism moms, that is just wrong. The first time I was hospitalized for suicide, I was eighteen years old. Thats private information, and no parent to a NT child would ever do that. Thank you Faith. This is is why half of all teacher quit within 5 years. Its unbelievable to me how selfish these women are. My hobbies and interests are lost to me. we also care for a child diagnosed with autism who have achieved some of the remarkable things for a 14 year old. I havent made it to 32 yet, and Im very lucky to have made it this long. Dont blast it all over a public media space. Signed, an autistic. Add that to the fact they dont have an understanding role model someone who is also autistic helping them through their difficulties- and you end up with someone who appears to have no empathy whatsoever. And you know what? Your email address will not be published. For example, hitting one's head could be replaced by rapidly shaking the head. She doesnt want me going to the garden. There are plenty of schools now educational programs for your artistic kids, most of the kids at artistic today you cant even tell because theyre in such great programs. And sometimes i fucking cry. Really? Keep it in mind, ableist NT mommies. You want to be a better person? 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